Friends

A dancer friend, Becca, died on Tuesday. She was my age (28) and the cause of her death is not exactly known. She was sick, and she had diabetes, but that shouldn't be so much to cause someone a death. I will continue to keep her in my prayers, as she was a wonderful person.

This is strange for me..

Well, I lost Brandi about 3 years ago. She was 22. However, she had been murdered - by her husband, none the less. Brandi was a beautiful person all around. I'm not sure if I could ever forgive Scott. (Ever...)

Stephen is a friend I also lost a while ago. He was a friend of Jeffy's and mine. He overdosed. I never knew his problem was as bad as it was. Actually, he informed me he didn't have a problem.

I miss my friends. And this all seems so surreal to me.

I don't want anyone else to die, but I know I cannot prevent that. I know that is not my decision. My saving grace is that God has them.. and He is taking care of them.

Becca, Brandi, Stephen... I love you all.. and I miss you...

It hurts to think about them, and I wish they still were here. But I know that God works in mysterious ways. I know that God does what is best, and sometimes we cannot understand it. Keeping that in mind is the most important thing..